Global Community Communications Alliance Member Profile
Tiyiendea
Greetings, and welcome to a brief yet sincere look into the life of a fallen fourth-order starseed from Fanoving.
I was born in Bloomington, Illinois, as was my entire extended family. When I was seven years old my parents decided it best to leave the family pressures behind and start a new life. They were young parents with four children and wanted to offer us a different approach to life. So off to Phoenix we traveled. It was a very courageous move for my parents, and they were wonderful examples of working very hard to improve their lives and provide for their children.
I was and still am the proverbial "black sheep" of the family, and often I felt I was on the "outside" watching my life unfold. Unfortunately, I found the institutionalized school life stifling, and most subjects taught were insignificant to my daily life. I now know that I, as a "starseed," learned in a different manner than the majority of my classmates who were "new light souls" and that the curriculum was geared mainly toward their learning modes, skills and abilities. I found school a wonderful place to connect with and enjoy many beautiful personalities. Much to my parents' confusion, I showed great compassion for the "under-dog," minorities, the physically handicapped, and social outcasts. I felt responsible to provide them protection and would do battle with anyone who would take advantage of these vulnerable souls. I was a stubborn and strong-willed child and often found myself doing battle at home, fighting for what I thought was "right" and never backing down to either my big brother or sister.
My family then moved to the border town of El Paso, Texas, where I fell in love with the Mexican people. I very much admired their traditional beliefs in family unity and their strong faith in God, and I was deeply disturbed to daily witness the poverty and exploitation of this culture. Then came the realization that prejudice/racism does not just start and stop with the Mexican people; it is a global disease. I was heartsick, confused and angry, for I knew without a doubt that this was not how God intended for human beings to treat other human beings.
I would seek peace and quiet in nature by walking or riding my horse on the banks of the Rio Grande. I would talk with God and ask Him why life had to be so cruel and unjust. I was just fifteen years of age and felt heavy in my heart.
I was raised Presbyterian and had a love in my heart for Jesus that kept me in the "race". So, as a young teen I sought refuge in the church. Before I was nineteen I had tried just about every church, and even a synagogue, as well as attending an Easter celebration with the local Jehovah's Witnesses. I went to anything alternative, including groups who spoke in tongues and played rock music while performing the ceremony of laying on of the hands.
I went on to try my hand at the "Great American Dream," going to college, marrying "Mr. Successful," having 2.2 children along with a white picket fence and living happily ever after. I quickly awoke from this "Dream" and began to see the lack of balance within the dance of life. I saw through many of the deceptions and became very saddened with the realization that much was missing from individuals' lives who appeared to have so much going for them. I noted in my mind that to pursue a materialistic lifestyle was overrated and sugar-coated.
Later I would find myself taking my daughter once a week to the Krishna temple and engaging in discussions with the elders there. I found a Unity Church in just about every major city that we lived in, which often was the closest I would come to hearing any kind of balanced message. But nothing really penetrated my heart and soul. I felt that there were not enough truths being presented. Something was definitely missing from the teachings as well as from the individuals teaching it. Nothing was grabbing me, catching my attention and waking me from my state of helplessness.
Throughout my life I was drawn to older souls—starseed souls—who cultivated something of a spiritual nature, a unique expression in their exploration of life. This "needed connection" of more spiritually expansive relationships started to separate me from my family and friends who are new light souls. From their perspective, I was too wild, too curious, and asked way too much from life. This dissatisfaction, complemented by my fueled anger, frightened people. And, believe me, it often frightened me as well. My head was so turned around, I was jumping from one thing to another.
So for many years I rode the "New Age" spaghetti bowl/mix master. I did realize a lot of it was completely ridiculous, but I also experienced some deep spiritual insights and felt encouraged that there were truths yet to be discovered. When I would pray and try to hear from God, the only thing I could make out was to not give up the SEARCH.
I was by now a single mother of two precious children, and this seemed to only drive me harder to gain knowledge and answers for their future as well as for my own. I was absolutely starved to find my true self and even more hungry to grow in my understanding of a necessary relationship with our local Universe Creator/Father. How can you really know your self at a soul level unless you know your planet of origin, your destiny purpose, and just how and why this planet is in the mess that it is in?
I wasted many years being lost in my own trip. I was running so fast and hard that God no longer was in focus. It became my show, with me as the writer, producer, director, and leading actress (of course). Needless to say, I lived in survival mode, living to survive instead of surviving to live.
For years I was torn between moving to a third world country (so as not to participate in America's decadence) or living in progressive U.S. cities to identify with and participate in peoples' efforts to evolve. Staying in the States, I was saddened that I could not deny the fact that most people are on their own selfish trip, including myself. All too often I would find myself, and most people around me, compromising with the hard balls life presented, turning the other cheek when they should have confronted, and not turning the other cheek when it was more appropriate to. Nowhere could I find an entire community that had the concern to be their brother's keeper and supported one another's natural God-given ascension plan, where "your child is mine and my child is yours," a quote from Gabriel of Urantia—an extended family that enveloped the entire globe.
On one of my many moves across the United States, one of the last things my father said to me (which was not the first time) was, "Stacey, there is no Utopia". Ah... there it was, this look I caught in his eyes of both fear and hope. My mission was and is far from over. For a moment in time and space I humbled myself enough to ask God for His highest direction in my life. Then I actually got myself out of the way long enough to hear His response.
So here I am writing and hoping to challenge others who have their own personal stories of hope for a better, safer and higher world. Yes, it does need to go first through God the Father of all to begin to open up your higher circuitry. And yes, you do need to re-educate yourselves by studying the Fifth Epochal Revelation, The URANTIA Book and Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation, The Cosmic Family volumes. This will give you the tools to understand the origin of this planet and its fall into rebellion. And if you are so lost as to believe that your life is just the way YOU LIKE IT, then it is YOU who need this revelation more than the brother or sister next to you, for they just might follow your higher lead, if you make the higher choice. Go ahead, take the highest and hardest challenge of this lifetime and aid your planetary family to make a GLOBAL CHANGE, a SPIRITUALUTION for your children and mine. Was not it Jesus who said, "Ye shall do greater things than I."?
No, Utopia has not yet been developed upon this strife-torn planet, but I personally am willing to change the darkness first within myself in order to aid in the labor and eventual birth of the first stages of Light and Life on this planet, so that the potential for the lion to lay down next to the lamb (being thy brother's and sister's keeper) can become a reality worldwide.
What I have found in my years of searching are my spiritual elders and a family that has the highest concepts in order to live the teachings which Jesus Christ Michael has blessed us with. And through the Fifth Epochal Revelation, The URANTIA Book and Continuing Fifth, The Cosmic Family volumes, I have found enough truths to keep one swimming towards Paradise as a family for the rest of eternity.
God's speed to you my brothers and sisters of this magnificent globe. I pray that you will tarry no longer where you are; I pray for God's will in your life. May you have the courage to put aside your will.
In loving service to our Universe
Father and Sovereign, Jesus Christ Michael of Nebedon, and my deepest respect
to the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star, Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn
Emerson Chase, who are the highest spiritual elders on this planet.
My most humble thanks for your courage.
Tiyiendea,
Minister
Liaison Minister
to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase and the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star