Global Community Communications Alliance Member Profile
Lah-May
My spiritual journey had been a private one—searching libraries and bookstores for higher truths. I would pause on various paths but never sensed that any one was the one I was to set out upon. In 1983, I met someone who I sensed to be a kindred soul. My intuition proved accurate, for one of the first things he asked me was, "Have you ever heard of The URANTIA Book? " I hadn't, but my interest instantly peaked. I asked in response, "Who wrote it?" He answered "no one, really" and went on to explain that it was new revelation and various spirit beings from another dimension brought it through. I had always considered myself level-headed, practical, and not at all prone to flakiness; I was curious but cautious. Once I started reading the book, however, my suspicions eased. Then one evening while reading the Jesus papers, I burst into tears when I realized what I was reading was Truth—I finally found The Path I had been searching for!
For several years I remained a solitary reader, occasionally finding souls I could relate to and share these revelatory concepts with. At the same time I was feeling more and more uncomfortable about my life situation. After graduating from college in 1982, my goal, like the majority of college graduates, was to get a job—a good-paying job. I had landed one with a defense contractor. I knew in my heart this was not where God wanted me, yet society and the third-dimensional mindsets tend to discount altruistic longings and encourage "success." All during that time, however, there was within me the sense that I needed to keep my head above the sea of conformity I was swimming in.
In 1989, I felt strongly pushed to find other URANTIA Book readers. I re-connected with the friend who had introduced me to The URANTIA Book. I also joined a small study group and a few years later made contact with other readers in the surrounding areas. It was at a URANTIA Book readers social gathering in Santa Barbara that I first heard of Gabriel of Sedona and Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation. A continuation of my beloved URANTIA Book? I scoffed along with others, for in my mind I had decided that The URANTIA Book was going to be around for a long time before more epochal revelation would come to our planet. Yet, several months later I found myself ordering The Divine New Order and The Cosmic Family, Volume I . Even the receipt of these books didn't convince me that what was happening at Global Community Communications Alliance Communtity was real. In my fundamentalist mind, if a book claimed to be a continuation of The URANTIA Book , it should read just like it. The Cosmic Family, Volume I , from my cursory inspection, spoke of concepts I was unfamiliar with, like "repersonalization" and "starseed." (I blocked the idea that "new concepts" could be "new revelation.")
So I discounted their claims and continued on with my life. In all outward appearances my life was just fine. I was an independent woman. I had a good job, I could afford an expensive car, nice clothes, my own home, eat out at fancy restaurants, drink fine wines, travel, etc., etc.—all of the trappings of the third-dimension (the dominant culture of western civilization). Yet I was feeling more and more uncomfortable about the choices I was making and the companies I was working for—I knew that, albeit indirectly, I was contributing to the making of weapons of destruction and the profiting from them.
I tried separating my spiritual interests from my day-to-day routine. My fellow employees saw one side of me; my family saw another side of me; my friends, depending on their interests, would see a side they could feel comfortable with. I was feeling fragmented, and my physical health was reflecting the spiritual inconsistency in my everyday life. My thyroid was shutting down—my metabolism was down to 10% of what it was supposed to be. It was as if my higher self could no longer participate in contributing to the condition of the world. Many who claim to know and love God really don't follow His divine commandments. It was becoming more and more clear to me that I was one of them. I was finally realizing I couldn't separate God from any aspect of my life.
I started looking into changing careers—perhaps go into teaching. Yet, somehow I knew it was not the right direction. Finally one evening I surrendered to God and asked Him to please give me purpose to life.
I certainly wasn't expecting the answer that was soon to come. The very next week I received a letter from a friend who had joined Global Community Communications Alliance telling me she felt pushed from within to write to me, sensing I too belonged there. Numerous other serendipities also pointed me in the direction of Sedona. Could this be God's answer to me? I knew I had to investigate.
Nothing out of the ordinary seemed to occur when I visited a few months later. I stayed in a hotel, met some nice members of Global Community Communications Alliance, participated in a potluck dinner and a class. Yet when I returned home, nothing seemed real. The living spiritual forces were hard at work; I knew I was being called to return to Global Community Communications Alliance, join the work, attend the Starseed and Urantian Schools of Melchizedek, and grow in understanding. There came upon me a peace I had never before experienced. The door was opening to purpose in life. My prayer life and my developing relationship with God confirmed my decision to quit my job and move to Arizona; my faith triumphed over my need for materialistic securities.
One of the first things that Gabriel of Urantia said to me after I arrived was he needed to learn to trust me, and I needed to learn to trust him. I remember thinking, "fair enough" to his statement. It did not take me long to see that Gabriel and his complement, Niánn Emerson Chase, were steadfastly committed to God and to doing His perfect will. I now not only trust them, but I am inspired by their faith in God, their father and mother-like love, their discernment, their wisdom, their very "realness," and their confidence in Jesus Christ Michael's promise to return. After working closely with both Gabriel and Niánn for more than four years now, it's very evident why they have been needed in numerous repersonalizations and "walk-in" situations to keep this planet moving towards divine pattern.
Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation's teachings of souls repersonalizing on this planet turned out to be not a conflict of my URANTIA Book comprehensions but a complement to them, extending the path I was on. I now know and am very aware of the fact that I am one of 2,000 second-time Urantians; I have had one other life on Urantia, my planet of origin. I also plainly see that many souls on Urantia have their origins from other universes—these being the starseed. Whether they are here to experience first-hand the effects of their participation in the Lucifer Rebellion or to gain experience and help this planet in its shift to higher consciousness, I enjoy the incredible diversity and soul experience they bring to this fallen world. I marvel at our Creator Son's and their Creator Sons' wisdom in giving Urantians and starseed the opportunity to live and work together here at this First Planetary Sacred Home. With high order celestial spirit beings guiding us and working with us, we strive to shift this planet out of rebellion and closer towards light and life.
I can't help but be somewhat saddened that more in the world do not experience the joys, the challenges, the teachings, the surety of God's fatherly love, the expanded revelation, and the brother/sisterhood that we in Global Community Communications Alliance experience. In our attempts to make others more aware of this reality, we have encountered those who, out of error, sin, or iniquity, are just as intent in keeping these truths from the world.
The URANTIA Book often describes the expectations and then subsequent disappointments of even the apostles. One of our greatest disappointments happened when NBC Dateline totally, and without conscience, misrepresented us—particularly Gabriel and his teachings. After the show aired, I tried to get my mind off of the iniquity I had just beheld by reading a novel. The spiritual forces that were with me urged me to pick up The URANTIA Book instead. I let it fall open where it may; page 1946 and a section entitled, "The Enmity of the World" gave me a cosmic perspective of what had just happened, for here I read what Jesus spoke to His apostles and was now speaking to us:
"When I have left you, be not discouraged by the enmity of the world. Be not downcast even when faint-hearted believers turn against you and join hands with the enemies of the kingdom. If the world shall hate you, you should recall that it hated me even before it hated you. If you were of this world, then would the world love its own, but because you are not, the world refuses to love you. You are in this world, but your lives are not to be worldlike. I have chosen you out of the world to represent the spirit of another world even to this world from which you have been chosen. But always remember the words I have spoken to you: The servant is not greater than his master. If they dare to persecute me, they will also persecute you. If my words offend the unbelievers, so also will your words offend the ungodly. And all of this will they do to you because they believe not in me nor in Him who sent me; so will you suffer many things for the sake of my gospel. But when you endure these tribulations, you should recall that I also suffered before you for the sake of this gospel of the heavenly kingdom."Some may think this was purely coincidental, but I knew it was a divine confirmation. Despite how those who were "of the world" presented us, God knew our intentions.
The author Joel Goldsmith from his book, The Infinite Way, states: "Is it reasonable to expect that there can be a whole group of people in modern times so dedicated to the Christ-life that they will live by actual spiritual contact?...Such a group would establish a pattern for the whole world." God is indeed calling this global change community to do His will—break away from being "of the world", humble ourselves, submit to true spiritual leadership, move into interdependence, and establish a new divine pattern of living, serving, and relating to one another. I am seeing what we are striving for is "normalcy"—a planetary family with God as the ultimate Father.
I feel sure-footed on the ever-extending path I'm on. I encourage everyone to break from the shackles of conformity and fear. The path of ascension is adventuresome and lined with spiritual ministers of God ever-urging us on to attain eternal realities. I pray that more and more open their eyes to see and their ears to hear; the spiritual sights and sounds of the refreshing waters of Global Community Communications Alliance are meant to be experienced by all.
In loving service to you my brothers and sisters, and
in humble obedience to my sovereign, Christ Michael of Nebadon,
Lah-May,
Minister
First Assistant
to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase and the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star