Global Community Communications Alliance Member Profile

Mycenay

I would like to start out my profile by thanking God and my elders, Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase, for the awesome opportunity and tremendous responsibility of serving under the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star. I have never felt so fantastically excited and at the same time so completely sobered by the magnanimity of the task at hand and the road ahead. For those "who have eyes to see and ears to hear" the grand vision and destiny of our unique and troubled planet is available in the Fifth Epochal Revelation ( The URANTIA Book ) and Continuing ( The Cosmic Family volumes). A higher understanding of the past, present, and future is one of God's many gifts to our world; all we need do is receive it.

One of the gifts of the Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation is the teachings about the different souls, soul ages, and points of origin of the people of our world. Recognizing myself as a fourth-order (fallen) starseed explains so much that I have felt and known, seemingly without reason, in this life. The fact is that there is more than my thirty years in this life which has brought me together with my cosmic family—again. There is a teaching of cosmic philosophy in The URANTIA Book on page 556 that states, "The greatest affliction of the cosmos is never to have been afflicted. Mortals only learn wisdom by experiencing tribulation." That quote speaks volumes about our little sojourn here on Urantia (Earth). I would like to share with you my experiences which led to the unfoldment and personal revelation of who I am, who I was, and who I am striving to be.

I grew up in Miami, Florida—a big city with a fast pace. Although I was never coerced to follow any one particular religion or teaching, I was blessed to grow up with the teachings and concepts of The URANTIA Book around me—my parents began reading the Fifth Epochal Revelation when I was five. My parents were open-minded, and so I sometimes went to church with Christian friends, and I sometimes went to temple with Jewish friends. At a young age I began trying to enlighten people who believed that only followers of their particular religion or sect would be "saved" while the rest were "going to hell." Early on I became disheartened with the ignorance and self-righteousness I found in the religious arena and turned away from it completely. I felt a spiritual connection to God, but could not believe in any one evolutionary religion as encompassing "all truth." My Spirit of Truth resonated most with the revelatory religion of The URANTIA Book which in itself states that it is only part of a continuing revelation and that no one book can ever possibly hold all there is to know about God and His manifold creations. This I believed to be true and therefore extracted truths from various religions, compiling my own personal spirituality without committing to one religion.

After high school I attended Florida State University and was blessed with a soul-growing experience. I spent my sophomore year studying in Florence, Italy and traveling extensively. I visited every country in Western Europe as well as Yugoslavia, Hungary, Russia, and Greece. I went to the Berlin Wall and ceremoniously chipped away at it with hammer and chisel three weeks after it officially "came down" but before it had been physically removed. I stayed in West Berlin, which was sophisticated, cosmopolitan, and international, and visited East Berlin, which was like stepping back in time fifty years. The Berlin Wall was itself a symbol of the two opposite extremes of society that existed on either side of it. The West side of the Wall was covered with graffiti ranging from beautiful artwork to hideous images, from phrases like "God loves you" to the most heinous language imaginable. The East side was completely white-washed with a rifle tower posted approximately every two hundred yards. The West side represented chaos and unbridled liberty while the East side dio (evil) control and oppression, neither of which was working for the people. I went ice-skating at an outdoor rink right next to the Berlin Wall and could only think about the children who were not able to play with and befriend other children ten paces away because of this monstrosity of division and fear. That Wall would be an analogy for many things I began to understand about the broken systems of the fallen state of our planet.

Serendipitously the Berlin Wall—a symbol of fear, division, and deceit—was politically removed in 1989, while during April of the same year the first visit and fusion of the head administrator of our local universe of Nebadon (the Bright and Morning Star) with Gabriel of Urantia initiated the mandate given to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase to bring through Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation and start the Divine Administration. Also in December of 1989 was the instatement of Machiventa Melchizedek (a celestial spirit personality who walked the earth as the Sage of Salem, teacher to Abraham, approximately four thousand years ago) as Planetary Prince of Urantia, heralding the spiritual reunification of our world. Looking back on my experiences in Europe I can see God's hand in many of them and how being there began to open up memory circuits for me to later recognize myself as a starseed who has lived before. The serendipities which opened my cosmic mind are too many to recall in this profile and are still unfolding along with the discovery of myself in God.

As I look at who I want to become I am compelled to look back at who I was before giving my life to God. In doing this I realized that I was what so many people are, especially starseed—a master escape artist. My means of escape was through drugs and alcohol. Because there are so many people who share this same prison sold as a freedom train, I feel it important to share a little about my lifestyle throughout high school, college, and my early twenties. I was someone who "liked to party," indulging in alcohol and other mood-modifiers, particularly marijuana. At first it was something new and fun, but the novelty soon wore off and it became more of a habit and way of life. What I realize now is that smoking pot, my drug of choice, numbed my pain and emotional frustration with myself and the mounting problems of the world. Ironically, pot and alcohol numbed my pain in the moment, but caused so much more pain in the long run. By the time I was in my third year of college I had lost over a half dozen friends from high school to drunk driving accidents, suicides, or drug-related murders. These were "average" kids who went to the "best" public high-school in one of the "nicest" (and wealthiest) neighborhoods in Miami. Increasingly I became aware of the problems of the world and its peoples. One of the hardest lessons I've had to learn is that no one can do your ascension for you, and you can't do anyone's ascension for them.

At the age of twenty-four radical changes in my consciousness started happening. I became increasingly aware of the suffering in the world and thus increasingly depressed. I was painfully conscious that at any given moment people were being murdered, tortured, and raped—I cried often. My friends and family didn't know what to do. I agreed to see a psychiatrist at one point even though I knew on a deep level that the root of my pain was in my relationship with God. Of course, after the first (and only) appointment I was prescribed an anti-depressant. Our society is so quick to take away the pain and put on the band-aid without looking for the source of the dis-ease. Most people could not understand my depression because outwardly (materially) I had a "good" life—a handsome boyfriend who wanted to marry me, a "good" job which paid well, a nice house with a pool, a dog, two ski vacations a year, bla, bla, bla. When I would express that my sadness came from the state of our planet and the suffering in our world, my friends would say, "Life is what you make it," or "That's just the way things are," or "Things have always been this way." But deep inside, in my heart of hearts, I knew things hadn't always been this way and this was not how God intended them to be. During this time I had a personal revelation—a deep understanding came into me that there is divine overcontrol and that I would experience the Second Coming of Christ in my lifetime. At this point I was so confused that I really didn't even know Jesus, but the term Second Coming was very clear in my mind. I began to feel like one of a few sane people in an insane world, and I believe that is exactly what was happening—I was going sane . Going sane is a painful process on a rebellion-torn world. What was happening to me in Continuing Fifth Epochal Revelation terminology is that I was beginning to come into my cosmic mind ; a part of me was awakening that remembers past lives, remembers living on a higher world in light and life which was not broken by the self-centeredness of rebellion, "a world of peace and light and children dancing gaily" (lyrics from the song Intra/Interplanetary Child © by Gabriel of Urantia). Having these feelings and emotional memories and having to live on this strife-ridden world was almost unbearable, and I knew on a subconscious level that I needed to find my cosmic family and get into God's plan, soon!

In 1996 when I was twenty-five my father introduced me to The Cosmic Family, Volume I. As I read, God's call on me grew stronger and stronger. I had never been interested in or even thought about living in a community, but I knew I was supposed to go to Sedona. So, with many, many tears, I left my boyfriend, my family, my friends, and my dog and went to Boulder, Colorado! (starseed can be so stubborn) by way of Sedona, Arizona. I stayed in Sedona for three days, met some community members, and had a teaching orientation. I did not even meet Gabriel and Niánn during that visit, but a connection was made which would draw me back quickly. Shortly after I left Sedona I ended up on a one-month road trip camping in some of the most beautiful and pristine areas in the United States, the bottom of the Grand Canyon, Yosemite National Park, the Northern California and Oregon coasts, Washington's Olympic Peninsula near the San Juan Islands, away from the distorted energies of the densely populated areas. All during this time the living spiritual forces, my Thought Adjuster (the fragment of God within each of us) and the Spirit of Truth were able to reach me, and I was undeniably being told that God wanted me to go to the community of Global Community Communications Alliance in Sedona, Arizona. The message was loud and clear; so I took the leap of faith. You could say I followed my heart.

Now, more than four years later, I am increasingly humbled by God's blessings and tender mercies that allow me the chances to be a better person today than I was yesterday, to experience the exquisiteness of His eternal now through self-forgetfulness and selfless service, to reunite with cosmic family and loved ones, to heal ancient wounds and be cleansed by the waters of forgiveness. In coming to Global Community Communications Alliance I've learned that global change begins with personal change. Although facing my own demons is not easy, I have never felt higher than when I truly strive to put God first above all else and my brothers and sisters before myself. I used to live my life within a self-made cage of unbridled liberty; now I am truly free in God. Christ Michael's message is the same today as it was when He walked the earth as Jesus of Nazareth two thousand years ago—"Come to me all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me, for I am true and loyal, and you shall find spiritual rest for your souls." ( The URANTIA Book , p. 1808:01). May the breath of God be the wind in your sails.

Mycenay, Minister
Second Assistant
to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase and the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star

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