Global Community Communications Alliance Member Profile

Octavee

Hello fellow travelers of time and space!

I hope you will be a part of this cosmic dance, this cosmic song we are a part of. God has a destiny for all of us, and when we come to know God the Father He will reveal this destiny to us. How our life’s journey unfolds is all about choice.

I want to let you know how my choices led me to my destiny.

If you are motivated by searching for truth, we have something in common. This search for truth brought me on this long journey. When it all started I had no idea that it would lead me to Divine Administration and to God the Father.

I was born in a small town called Reinheim in Odenwald, in the countryside near Frankfurt in West Germany. Growing up as a middle class kid I had much comfort even though there was much work to do at home. From the age of six on I suffered weekly from severe migraines, and these migraines kept me searching for healing and deeper answers from my late teen years on until they eventually disappeared after being more in God’s will. My political and spiritual awakening started in the mid-eighties when I was twenty years old after I moved out from my parents home. Radical changes in my perception of and relating to my environment took place. First I went through a phase of being a strict vegetarian for several years. My love for nature got more and more combined with the willingness to act upon the recognition of the ecological disaster our planet was in. Fritjof Capra’s Turning Point and Hoimar von Ditfurth’s And Now Let’s Plant a Little Apple Tree opened my eyes and kindled my compassion for the suffering in the world and for the ecological problems. I quit my job as a banker after my apprenticeship and started to study biology with the goal to become engaged in ecology. At the university I hoped to find answers about the mystery of life (biology as the science of life), but I realized soon that the pure scientific point of view wasn’t appealing to me either. The nonspiritual views of the students and the professors and the apolitical attitude of most students at the university made the decision easy to quit my academic career before it had really started.

At an early age my discontentment with the religious answers I was given in the evangelic-Lutheran church by our pastor was increasing. I was drawn to the Gnostic movement and to the Egyptian and Mayan cultures. I studied with some committed others almost every evening the teachings of the new Gnostic movement. After three months the whole Gnostic scene was getting more and more fear-based and negative, so I left that path to find myself in eastern religions, connecting with the Brahma Kumaris World University. Meditating, meditating, meditating. That was of course a wonderful experience, but there was something missing. Responsibility and taking action were not part of this practice.

After leaving my studies in biology at the university, I started to assist at an ecological bank project. My full idealism was merging with this project. At the same time I was tapping more in the New Age scene. Chakras, Reflexology, Anthroposophy, Reincarnation, channeled information, Rolfing, Jin-Shin Yutsu, Alta Major, Bioenergetics, Core Energetics, Feldenkrais, Hakomi were few subjects I studied or experienced. I was reading and doing a lot, mainly busy with myself and my own problems. I wanted to volunteer with a HIV positive project, but at the same time I was so full of my own problems that I thought, "I have to start healing myself before I can help others."

There was always one or another crisis which led me to a next step. I lost my home and moved from friend to friend for awhile. I encountered moments with God, where I felt connected with Him as well as moments of despair and loneliness.

The greatest affliction of the cosmos is never to have been afflicted. Mortals only learn wisdom by experiencing tribulation. ( The URANTIA Book , p. 556:14 12.)

Stars are best discerned from the lonely isolation of experiential depths, not from the illuminated and ecstatic mountain tops. (ibid, p. 556:15 13.)

My spiritual insights brought me increasingly in conflict of what choices I needed to make. My idealism regarding my work at the ecobank decreased until I came to the point where I knew that this was not my destiny. I quit after almost eight years. I then started with two friends a consulting business for ecological and social projects. Leaving the ecobank was like a little death, because I was very engaged for such a long time with this pioneer project of alternative German culture, but the decision was right. I gave up a certain security to step into the unknown. The little death was also a rebirth.

I was still looking for my spiritual home. Self-awareness groups helped me to see and feel more clearly that I needed to change, not only on the level of occupation. This was a very healing period. At the same time it seemed with one healing process two older wounds came to the surface. I started reading in channeled books about starseed, the Pleiades, and lightworkers. I was going through major changes, but in spite of all that I still felt very lost at times.

I became more involved in lightwork, what it meant for us to heal and change ourselves and others who were following the same path. I personally saw part of my task to network the different groups in the city I lived. In my business I became at times very frustrated, because of the miracles clients expected from me as a consultant, and at the same time because of the unspiritual consciousness in the business world, including the alternative scene in Europe. I learned to realize that you can’t change the system within the system.

This is an awakening call to the seven cosmic families on Urantia, and in particular to those from worlds within the universes of Ursa Major, Centaurus and the Pleiades. You are called to come out of the Caligastia system, to come out of the third dimension. ( The Cosmic Family Volume I , p. 226)

I hadn't heard the call yet and made another detour. I started reading and studying The Course in Miracles intensively. The good thing about it was that my relationship to Jesus was getting reactivated, even when I had at the same time a feeling of an inconsistency in the whole concept of the book. I started praying to find my destiny. I worked with angels and asked them for help.

God had His plans to wake me up. I was getting suddenly sick and spent five days in my bed, and because of an aching back, I was almost unable to move. I had a big chance to get down on my knees and ask God what to do. After I was getting better, I felt fine for half a day until it struck me down again. This time with a flu. Time for more soul-searching. The sword of truth was cutting deeper.

I knew God wanted me to take a bigger step, a step in the unknown, a step to bring more spirituality in my life, moment to moment. I knew I had to say good-bye to my way of life and my business partners. But what was I to do now?

The question was East or West? India or USA? One group of people I was connected with were drawn to India and visited quite often Sai Baba. I liked the people. Was this what I should do? I was always drawn to the New World. Finally it was clear: Take a two month trip to the USA to find new answers.

There were many serendipities happening, and in a short time I was led to Aquarian Concepts Community and Divine Administration in Sedona, Arizona. From the first day it was a feeling of coming home, a feeling I had not experienced in my whole life.

Through the activation of the Spirit of Truth it was clear to me that God wanted me to serve here. I learned about the Fifth Epochal Revelation, The Urantia Book and that Jesus is in fact Christ Michael, the Creator Son of the universe of Nebadon. I learned about the Cosmic Family and the union of souls. I learned about the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star and about God's absolutes. These absolutes I lost due to my own rebellion against God. I found "the peace that passes all understanding." I found fulfillment. My heart and the Spirit of Truth, which is activated in me, knows that I am in God’s will and that I am part of this Reserve Corps of Destiny to bring higher truth to this planet.

Religious perplexities are inevitable; there can be no growth without psychic conflict and spiritual agitation. The organization of a philosophic standard of living entails considerable commotion in the philosophic realms of the mind. Loyalties are not exercised in behalf of the great, the good, the true, and the noble without a struggle. Effort is attendant upon clarification of spiritual vision and enhancement of cosmic insight. And the human intellect protests against being weaned from subsisting upon the nonspiritual energies of temporal existence.( The URANTIA Book , p. 1097:06)

This did not just happen overnight. To grow out of third dimensional into fourth dimensional reality is hard work. It doesn’t come automatically, like many in the New Age want to make you believe. I know now that I am a fourth-order starseed and that my point of origin is in the universe of Wolvering.

My search for truth was setting me free, and my path through darkness was leading me eventually to the real light.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me besides the still waters.

He restores my soul; He leads me in the path of righteousness for His name sake.

Yes, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

Psalm 23

I am very thankful to my elders here, especially to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase. Without their wholehearted dedication and steadfastness, this regathering of the Cosmic Family would not be possible. I thank also all real spiritual teachers I had before I came here. So many steps were necessary to take for me to grow, and still I am so far away from our goal of being perfect, like Jesus, Christ Michael, told us to be. Of course I’m grateful to Christ Michael Jesus, our sovereign. His love and mercy are a wonderful blessing, and His forgiveness gave me the chance for growth.

Who? If not You
When? If not Now
What for? If without Love

once sang Rio Reiser, a German rock poet. I always wanted to change the world. I had a vision to live and work together with spiritual people. Now the vision is getting larger. I don't wait any longer until other people do something. I follow the ones who are worthy of my trust and love, and we together build a better world. It has to start somewhere—with a relationship with Christ Michael in your heart. With the next choice of goodness and for God, the Father.

I pray for you. I pray for all true freedom fighters, for all environmental activists, for all who are looking for higher truth and also, for those who are willing to take on the challenge. I pray for all who are suffering in these dark times. We have to come together and fight the good fight together. Separation and division is how the forces of evil can control us. We are all God’s children, and we are all brothers and sisters.

There is hope and the task is worthwhile. I am looking forward to seeing you and hearing from you.

Thank you again, Christ Michael of Nebadon and thank you the Creator Son of Wolvering, my Creator Father.

Octavee, Minister
Former Community Member
to Gabriel of Urantia and Niánn Emerson Chase and the Mandate of the Bright and Morning Star

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